Hello and welcome to another week of this.
To be honest, I think this is the week where I really found it hard to get back. I think I was very focused internally when I started this and somehow I feel like my world has started to open up a bit again, which has made it harder to find time to write all of this, but at the same time it feels so satisfying to do this and today I spent some time looking through other sites and saw how much I could improve this, and what my original purpose was, so hopefully I'm well on my way to achieve it now.
Since I got my tea and infuser in the office, I've made a concious effort to keep my desk clear so I can appreciate the way it looks, and I feel way more at home in it now.
I guess it was about time I made it my own since it's were I have most of my thoughts, and the execution of them it's what I have to do the rest of the time.
I met with a couple of friends this week which I guess brought about the fact that in the past month I hadn't been looking outside of myself. One of my friends just got back from a trip to Europe (Spain, Italy and France, specifically) with her family and we had a lovely conversation about all the places she visited, and two things that really made me happy were that she told me the busy schedule they planned reminded her of me. You see, about two years ago we were both in Buenos Aires and the people that went with me kind of failed me as tourists, and the last day I was there i was really sad because i had thought a lot about this trip (while preparing my last presentation to graduate college, mind you) so doing it alone, no one to share it or take pictures with really depressed me. I remembered this friend was here to and asked if she was free the next day to hang with me and walk around the city, she said yes and I spent the day with her and her family. Her family mostly joined us to eat and through some sites, but they knew the city and allowed us to follow my touristic plan the rest of the day. She later told me her family was impressed by my ability to plan and enthusiasm, and I was incredebly grateful to them for spending the day with me and turning that trip around. She said her trip reminded her of that day, the running around to catch as many things as possible, and I love when people share memories they have with me.
The second thing that made my week was the gift she brought me, a beautiful leather(i think?) bookmark from Florence and I adore when people give you a gift that feels you would've picked for yourself. I started using is right away as I had just started reading Those who leave and those who stay (In which Elena is supposed to move to Florence after she marries which I hope she does because if she gets involved with Nino again I will throw hands).
Anyways, I'll let you see it:
The day before I went to a friends house to catch her while she's home for Easter, and to visit her mum as well, though I do that even when she's not here. We went to get some fries to get the evening started and on our way there I saw the most gorgeous flowers that I didn't recall ever seeing before. I'll show you:
Turns out it's called passiflora and if you look closely at the picture you'll see a bee hiding in there. And it was corageous getting that close to a bee in this time of the year, because it was easter friday nine years ago that two bees stung me in my eyelid, so you see, it's a sensitive topic. Actually I was joined at the time by the very same friend, and we're still coming too close to the flowers at this time of the year.
Later that day, we did a tarot reading, she learned a couple of years ago and has a lovely deck were the cards are represented by cats. But the cats weren't with us in this reading. Through some misterious questions she was able to figure out something that has been weighing on me, and we were able to have a conversation about it, which lifted it off me. She's always been great to have this difficult conversations with, I think we both share a quality about caring about what the other person feels before ourselves, so we are able to be honest and also careful with eachother, we've always protected eachother and I guess that's what makes our friendship so lasting.
If you noticed, I got through a couple of reads quite quickly this week, and I hadn't been this focused into it since probably december. It's weird when you feel you're losing interest in something you love to do, specially in this world when time goes so fast and it is so hard to dedicate time to all the things you want, have you felt this way? In any way, I feel happy I'm back to wanting to spend time reading, as I struggled through the summer.
Before I go, I'll add something else to the list of future projects (perhaps I should start a list?) as I started to try to identify and fix my grandmother's old sewing machine. Today I identified it as a Singer model 15 and the serial number tells me it was made in Brazil after 1954 (my mom tells me she bought it new shortly before she died in 1982), so add that to the very niche subject of "things my grandparents left behind I plan to fix this year".
Thank you for reading this week!